I've figured it out. It's not that I don't want to work here someday. It's that I don't want to be a young person here, I don't want to pay my dues here. Everyone's gotta pay their dues, do the grunt work before they can pull themselves up the ladder to where they want to be. It's gotta be done somewhere, and anywhere you do it it'll suck more than an internship where you can at least coerce people into kind of working with you to let you sit in on random meetings. But I think this place is so big, to get to somewhere where you can really shine takes a LOT longer than anywhere else. Also being a "young professional" in DC kind of sucks I think. I'd come back here with a family, but not before then. There, I like that conclusion. It makes me happier with myself. It's not that I hate it here in general, it's just the work I'm doing because I too am still scratching my way up the ladder.