Anyway, I do want to be more involved with other campus stuff, not just dance, although dance is my main focus. So I'm trying to think of other ways that I can meet people at NU, not in a "I need to know more people" kind of a way, but "everyone expands my perception of the world" kind of a way. BLAST for me this year is, yes, an opportunity to be involved in dance, but it's so much more than that. I finally feel like I have the expertise that I can actually help and contribute to this club, not as a dancer, but as a leader and as someone who can inspire other people to feel good about themselves through dance. I think I can help people achieve things through BLAST, be happier, make connections with other people. I've been researching b-schools lately, and more and more I feel like this is real-life leadership experience - building and marketing a team, keeping people motivated and interested, and I'm really looking forward to forging that ground.
At the same time I've always felt like I've had to give things up that I wanted to do - with NUOC, or CSA. So I think sometimes I'm going to cut back on BLAST for other things, and that's going to be the right decision. For example, I already promised tonight to go to TGIF at nino's studio, but it's causing me to miss an Indian Garba, that I know would have been a lot of fun to go to with my suitemates. I don't know that going to TGIF still has anything to do with my immediate interests in BLAST.. even if it IS a nice opportunity to see people, so I think after today I'll probably skip it to spend time with people like Robert - who I never see b/c he's always at the Daily and his only free evenings are Friday and Saturday. I also have to miss Kemper's munchies EVERY WEEK because they're at 9, and I have dance from 8-10 (although I'm hoping I can run back from dance at 10). Munchies is such a key opportunity to meet people in Kemper, but I can't miss the professionally coached sessions.
But these are the choices we make in life, sacrificing one thing so that we can do another that we believe will benefit us better.
I think sometimes I need to continually remind myself not to sell myself short. I often find that it's so easy to believe you're not worth something or someone. I need to be more egotistical and just jump into things. So much of my life I feel like I've focused on being inoffensive, which is of course very useful for making friends and such, but not much good for feeling bold and giving myself the opportunities I deserve. In conclusion, don't take shit from anyone and uh, go for the gold.
Right. I've nothing else to say except for: it's definitely fall b/c the temperature dropped like 10 degrees the night before last. And now people are wearing sweaters and stuff.. at least it's still sunny!!!!